I thought..

When i was young..

I thought rainbow is a solid object that we can touch

But its not..

I thought vitamin c is snack..

I thought study is everything..

I thought he is a bad man..

I thought heels is so comfortable to wear..

I thought life is just so fun ..

But its not..

When i may have the happiest moment of my life singing,watching movie

having so so much fun..i thought at that very moment everyone having as much fun just like me.

But its not..

There are ppl out thre having the worse time of their life..

When i thought im the most bad luck person in the world,

he or she may be worse than me..

As i grow... i start to realise whatever i thought is just

not right,

So what happen when everything seems to turn the other way round,

I start to think deeply...

I suddenly can stare at the sky for longer time comparing to how i use to be..

Why human can make mistake whn we know very well its a mistake..

Because when i study moral ,teacher told me stealing is bad..

So where does the ideas of doing crime came from,

And when my car got stolen,

I seriously do wonder does that person really have to steal a car to make living..

His problem may solved after stealing the car...

But what will happen to the owner of the car???

Your problem is solved, the owner of the car is in big trouble..

And i guess thats the circle of life..

When your having fun,other ppl are suffering..

But whn yr sufferring ..other ppl may be very happy or their condition is worse..

That is why the earth is round, and so does human life..

Its been a long time since i last drop a post on my blog..

Its not that im lazy.. or busy..

Or my life is super perfect now..

Im still the old me...

My old post is still reflecting my mind my thinking..

But after moving to kl...

Many of my thoughts..either good or bad turns out differently..

Maybe thats the process of growing up..

But why am i so childish before..

Im starting to explore the world outside now..

Its not because im emo...that i wrote this post..

This ideas just came out of the sudden..

Because thats the fact.

Beautiful weather in Teluk Intan

The weather today is really beautiful.. bit sunny and bit gloomy..
I look at outside through the sliding door...and suddenly out of nowhere..
i got the urge to out to the playground to sit in the swing..
So without second thought.. i grab the keys and ran out..
It feels good to sit on the swing ,having the breeze blowing on my face..
My standard 6 memories came into my mind suddenly..
I used to go cycling everyday sharp 6pm at my housing area playground..
It was fun to go there and meet some new friends.. Keep on going round and round the
playground with my purple bicycle.. wonder where is my bicycle now..
N i do wonder why all the presents frm my dad are all purple in color.. most of it..
Guess thats the reason why i love purple so so much..
I tried to swing as high as i can.. but too bad.. i just cant reach the sky..
Wonder whats the feeling to sit in a plane..
Yea.. i never been in a plane before..
But im not depressed at all..
I can always earn myself and go anywhere i want in the future..
Bring my naughty mum along..
ok... *added into things to do list*
hahaha....

Sept is coming.. and my girlfriends are all coming back soon..
Counting down everyday..
Just cant wait to bully mei mei..
squeeze kavita... tells everything to theva..
and gossip gossip gossip with yin,gaya,reaka,daar,villa... =)
This is the last gathering with them before i move to kl..
And i will appreciate every single second of it..
Miss the time we used to...
laugh together..
Cry togehter..
Study together..
Run away from teacher togethr..
YE together..
Dance together...
Always will stays in my mind...
Love u all babes !!! ^^

My Big Day..

I knw it might be quite early to talk bout my brthday celeb ..PLus the previous fews posts was quite emo..so i shud now posted sth happy...i seriously need to tell
how i was treated.. went to steamboat at first ...there beh fren wishes me.. i was shocked.. he say today is my celebration..hahahahahahahahhaah... ok.. so in order for everytin to go smoothly... I KEPT QUIET.. thn i notice sth.. they keep whispering to each other..BUT I KEPT QUIET...


aftr tat they say lets go to ferringhi market..so v go...
everytin looks normal...v talk.. v laugh.. lk usual..
thn suddenly..YOYO say reach d..
she stop at the roadside..
n beh tied me from behind..i mean blindfolded..i was SUPER SHOCK..i shouted..i scream...hahaha..
he try to tie..bt cnt..in the i tie myself ...hahaha..laugh die me..
he cnt b a kidnapper ...><


Then v reach there..they get down.. i waited in the car... it was creepy though..thn she pull me down..leadng me the way.. she told me nobody sees me.. bt i knw there mus b many ppl.. cause i heard music playing and feels the breeze of ocean.. thn they unfolded me... n i saw a beautiful cakes n some beautiful ppl sitting in front me.. im in SUNSET BISTRO... =D =D =D the ocean is just so beautifulll.... so v sing songs n cut the cake... i make a wish.. only one... i had been telling .. this few days.. i just want to b happy.. it may sounds simple.. but how easy it is to be able to achieve.. life seems to b complicated.. human are the most complicated creature... how i wish life is easy... anyway i enjoy my birthday.. this birthday prove sth as well... I ll stop here... Now let the photos tells the story..
Im blindfolded.haha... it was fun actualy... =p
Love u all too... .thank you so so so much...
Pressie... Pressie...

The Last Song

Yest i told kavita im gonna write a post bout all of them,walaugua gang..
But i ended up watch this movie,The Last Song.. this movie...
been searchng for months... even my coll frens got annoyed by the name of this mv..
cz i keep mentioning it...
n fnally i downloaded it...
I jus dunno why i already obsessed with from the first glance.. not that
its acted by Miley.. i just cnt get an explanation...
So i watch.. and how could anyone wont cry watchng movie..
Im nt good at doing movie review.. not good at commenting..
But tis movie really says smth..
The main actress Ronnie (Miley) came from a broken family..she was forced to spent her summer in her
father place which is not a very good idea for her...
She hated her dad...for everything that happens in her family.. at times we just tend to look
things wrongly i guess....
She later finds out that her dad actualy had cancer.. which is dying soon... at the last part she gets to spend times with her dad..
At least she is prepared for it and get to spend time with her daddy before he left.. how i wish i could had done dat..
It was a touching movie... i bet it must have feels the diff way for those who lost their dad..
Maybe...
And how i wish every single love story or relationship ended up just like them..
misunderstanding ,mistakes but in the end still togethr back again?
how many among millions love stories... succeed ?
hope mine too...

Here one phrases i manage to capture from the movie :
'Love is fragile,we're not always its best caretakers,we just muddle through and do the best we can,and hope this fragile things survive against all odds '

Your the first person that cross my mind...

I try to type as fast as i cn to log in to kcn..
cause ths is the last time im gonna check my result..
n thats where it determine my cgpa..
i want to achieve .. not to show off or tell the world that im good..
i work double hard after i was told that cn b able to not pay back
PTPTN loan.. which means i cn save up that money to support my mum and family..
n yea... saw the grades... start caculating...
mum sitting beside me.. looking at me silently..
thn i start jumping on bed..
n u appear on my mind...

I hope u know.. i wana see ur respons whn i tell u my result,
i hope to see ur beautiful smile whn u look at my paper..
i jus miss u so much...
pls let me knw ur proud of me..
love u daddy ~

I dream of him....

I dream of you yesterday...
In my dream... You seems so real..
But you did the same thing like you did when your here..
I woke up in the middle of the night..
Feeling the pain once again...
I try to sleep back but im struggling..
I turn and something catch my eyes..
Its the trophy that you won in a singing comp...
You are actually so great that...
I realize that it was all past and now that you are not here anymore..
There's nothing left to feel hurt or to blame..

Dad...
If you are at somewhere in this world..
And you can able to listen to what my heart is telling you..


'We had already forgiven you and we love you forever'
You stays forever in my heart ~

My Passion... My Interest.... My Love ...

And again lazy to talk so much...
Enjoy those pictures.... =)I started my dancing life...Basically since standard 5.. n i was first exposed to modern dance and chinese dance.I enjoy every moment of me dancing by the rhythm of music..No matter modern or traditional...As i think if you really love dancing..Is the passion that matters.. And its not about being famous or being 'cool'..I can give it all out just for dancing..I spend most of my weekend(whole day) in kaikan just for training...
One of the most challeging dance i had learn is contem dance..(Unexpected Song by Kai Beng)
Its the best dance and performance i ever had...And contem is the dance i wanna master the most...
'ONLY WHEN I DANCE , I FOUND MYSELF'
Thats the tagline i use to encourage myself whenever i face any problems...=)
Anyway i stop dancing since 18 or 19 (not so sure of the exact age) due to some problems and issues...
But all those memories remains in my heart ~(Sorry for the distorted photo.. But this the only i had left in my hardisk)
If you heard of the group 'STOMP' .. You will know what we are trying to do here..
We are inspired by them and we call ourself 'Fearless Crash'.. It was a performance back in 2006 for MMK MALAM MESRA at Jit Sin Independent,BM
This performance is lead by my brother ,Zeric Tan and chereography by Selveraj,an chinese educated indian guy...Ok la.. quite cute also la..><>..

I had once did this quiz back in form 5 about which side im better..I mean either science or arts.
And the result..
0 = SCIENCE
100 = ARTS
My teacher got a shock and asked ' So what are you doing here in science stream'
And there where i start to sit down and think carefully.
I remember when i was in primary standard 2.. I use to write that i want to be a scientist in the 'My Ambition' essay...
Then i change my mind..
And this is what im doing now and also for the future...


Alright.. i will stop here...
^^